You know how there are those people who know exactly what they want to do and what they want out of life?

I’m not one of those people.

Soul Sister has known since she was in primary school that she wanted to be a teacher. So that’s what she became. She is now on a temporary hiatus as she juggles motherhood and her Master’s degree, but once that’s all done she will return to teaching with a passion and enthusiasm that is quite simply, inspiring. She has always known exactly what her purpose in life is.

Picasso is like this too – I have blogged before about how he wants to be a pediatric nurse. And even though he’s just seven, it won’t surprise me at all if that’s exactly what he ends up doing.

And then there are people like – me πŸ™‚ Over the years I have wanted to be a…film producer/interior designer/psychologist/writer/lawyer/journalist/architect/archeologist/marine biologist…ah, the list goes on.

Right now I am working in the world of Corporate Affairs in Media, and for a while I felt as though I had found my niche. But…now I’m not so sure. And I can’t help wondering – is it me? Am I the problem? I just don’t seem to be able to settle on an occupation and be satisfied with it for the long term.

I still have dreams of being an author, of going back to Uni and finishing my PhD, of renovating a house and travelling the world. And then I wonder if I am wasting my time on pipe dreams -if there will ever be a career or job I feel is the “right” fit, or if I’ll just do a whole lot of different things throughout my life and be OK with that, even though it won’t really get me anywhere.

So in some ways I feel at a bit of a crossroads. Maybe it has something to do with being 35 and nearly 36 – and feeling ready for a new challenge.

I can’t believe it’s just me – there must be others out there who feel like I do, as though you’re a slightly odd-sized shape that NEARLY fits a few different holes, but just not quite.

I’d love to hear from you if you are out there πŸ™‚


3 thoughts on “Crossroads

  1. Alexandra Parnwell

    Em, I’m right there with you. Funny – all the things you mentioned have been on my ‘career’ list, just add concert violinist and doctor and you have Alex Parnwell. I feel like I’ve failed at my many attempts to be this or that. I worry that I’ll get to 40 and think… what the hell have I done with my life?!

  2. Jess

    It is soooooo not just you!!!! I totally understand. It’s a bit like being a Jack of all trades and a Master of none. For me being in the Entertainment Industry is a challenge as it is for anyone. If only it was as simple as becoming a teacher or a florist. Aside from my singing, I’ve thought about Interior Design (I even did a diploma course), real estate, journalism, voice over artist, fasion designer or a detective. I’ve done the whole secretary thing and have no desire to go back to that. It sucks not really knowing what I want or what I should do. I’m so thankful for the singing job I have. Singing is my passion and I do it well. At least I’m certain of that. If only my career path with that was as straight forward as teaching. Xx

    1. souljourneygirl

      Jess and Alex I think we are all so similar in this regard! And Jess – I feel like this is particularly true when your true passion is something like being an author or singer where so much of the outcome isn’t actually within our control. It’s certainly not straightforward xx

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