As promised… here are the first lot of excerpts from the diaries I kept from Year 8 through to Year 11.
Warning : complete drivel ahead.
I feel awful! I’m crying all the time – I hate myself! I just realised I’m crying right now! I honestly feel like dying. I have been in my room for AGES. I don’t know how long because my watch has broken. I hate myself, but lunch is ready. ..I don’t feel like going anywhere ever again. I’ll probably just sit here all day in my room. Please don’t think I’m exaggerating. I’ve been in my room all morning, so there’s no reason to not stay in here ALL AFTERNOON. I feel like I’m about 40 years old. I just feel sad, tired, old and depressed”.
(NOTE: blanket apology to all 40-year-olds who are not sad, tired and depressed. But I digress).
“I just feel like lying down and crying. I wish I was someone else! I’m crying again! There’s nothing else to express how I feel – just full of tears. I wish someone would help me! I wonder when it will pass.
I hope soon.
PS: I’m still crying.
PPS: I meant and mean every word of this. It’s not written to make anyone laugh, so don’t. Please.”
Ah, teenage girls. I kid you not, the very next entry reads:
“Well, I DID mean every word of that then, but I’ve got other things to worry about now!”
Now what brought about this change of heart, pray tell? Well, a boy, naturally! The diary continues:
“I’m in love yet again! I really, really like Boy1 (NOTE: names have been changed to protect the innocent). And he doesn’t actually know me! I’d heard about him before I met him, and I started thinking about him. Then when I met him and liked him I guessed it was just because I had made up this character with his name but the feeling hasn’t gone! So it must be more. But I still don’t really know him! It’s driving me crazy.”
Bye, love always,
PS: I love Jason Priestly
PPS: I love Christian Slater
PPPS: I love Boy1!!!!”
Oh dear. Will Souljourneygirl actually speak to the boy she apparently loves? The suspense is almost too much to bear.
🙂 Hope you enjoyed!